Finding My Reflection

I know this is a bad habit of mines, but today, I started reading a manga called Immortal Rain , and just wow! It’s one of the most touching I’ve read other than Nana and Naruto (which is touching in it’s own way, just wayy more action-packed) and it revolves around a man who is forced to live in solitude for centuries beyond humanly possible. Even though it deal with religious beliefs like death , rebirth, god, and science, it really is just so incredible. I mean, a lot of people think/want to live forever, but the downside would be that everyone you love would eventually die and leave you behind. and it’s just sooo. “AWWW ;______:”
What a depressing post…but i like to think of it as thoughtful! i like  to have a good cry and let everything out, like dane cook would have it, just not as …severe :p

I See Smoke

Today, near the end of 7th period, I found out that a house was on fire, and for the first time, I was really afraid. Before, I would be shocked or think ” I hope no one’s hurt.” but not really have meaning behind it. I remembered the memories of my house as I looked at the smoke. Even though my siblings say they would sell the house if they got the chance, I wouldn’t want to, not because it holds my childhood memories, but because of all the trees my family and I planted together. We planted so many different things that now provide for us, and  I’m not willing to let go of all that hard work and care we’ve put into growing them. It really hit me, to understand the real loss of a burning house. All your belongings, the memories within that house, the comfort, security, and effort into making it ‘HOME’ burned to ashes and cinders. How Very Terrifying.

It’s been awhile

It’s been a very long while since I’ve been on tumblr cause, well, I had more important things to do. such as playing on the new PS3 we got and Assassin’s Creed 2 and watching asian dramas :P. I consider them more important because it’s more interesting and fun, than to blog, especially when i don’t have that much to say. Other than the normal crap loads of stress, homework, and the beginning of a new year, I turned 18!!!  and i just want to say again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MORRIS, ANTHONY, AND THI. Even though I’ve already said it before, but still, if I don’t say it here, I’ll feel like something’s missing . Speaking of which, I hate that feeling like you’re always missing something not just physically, like forgetting something, but also emotionally. Does anyone else get this feeling as well? I mean there are times when I just feel so EMPTY. Maybe that’s why I watch so many dramas, so I can FEEL emotions, even if they’re not my own. :\  Speaking of dramas, I’ve recently been watching chinese ones, like Hi, My Sweetheart and Why, Why love. Even though in Hi, My Sweetheart i was cringing from agony because the main lead was wearing this ridiculous wig as his ‘real hair’ and I couldnt wait until he got rid of it. And in Why Why Love the male main lead has such a great smile! Well, I’m tired, so I can’t really think straight, Goodnight! or Goodbye for now! ( :P I know, I suck at blogs, that’s why I’m working on it)

Growing up

I don’t know about everyone, but im pretty sure there are those who want high school to last forever, and those who can’t wait for it to be over. As for me, i want to stay with my friends forever, but i can’t wait to start college and meet new people, to get out there and get REAL experience. A few of my friends have taken to reflecting on their lives and their past, and it reminded me about my life too. When i was a kid, i used to be whiney, bossy, reckless, and a crybaby. A few years ago i was a rough girl with vulgar words. Now in my senior year, i’m striving to become a better person, to find a self of me that i fit best with. This may sound weird but there are many sides to a person’s personality, and i want to change my attitude for the better, that’s not bad is it? despite my act of being a smart-alley or a wise-kid, i’m pretty darn niave, or maybe people let me pretend, who knows. i trust people too easily, think too deeply about trivial things, don’t think enough about things that DO matter. Lately, it’s been hard to focus on any one thing, ecxept when it’s something other than school, which makes me stress because i don’t get work done, and i play too often, this might be my attempt at avoiding the reality, the inevitability, the responsibility of being in my circumstances. i wonder what everyone else thinks about growing up… i wish i had people to talk to me about anything and everything… oh wait, ones in the philippines still… ;__; i miss the twin of my soul..

Another day

Today was just like any other day, almost ran late to class again :o I never thought much of Miley Cyrus, but Im hooked on her song ’ party in the USA’ and Beyonce’s ‘sweet dreams’. 2nd period is AP lit, which was okay, I got away with a B for the grading period, which is better than I expected really. 3rd period is chem which is alright, i guess. 4th period is Governmentwhich was boring, as ever, what a surprise. 5th period is spanish 3 with Snr. A, and as usual it was fun and challenging at the same time. 6th period is PreCal and it was so much fun today because we played jeopardy for chemistry(cince he didn’t teach anything the whole day b/c of PSAT’s) and it was so amusing seeing people get so worked up over the game. At the end, one of the guys (the class clown) went up and did a spoof on shamwow infomercial using the classroom rag to wipe the boards, it was hilarioussss. 7th is aid for girl’s p.e. office which was boring today except that i had access to the computer and the internet but not that big of a whoop. Pearl and Cheesecake need a bath, and I haven’t been able to clean their cage, poor babies, I’m so sorry!

After math

This past week ( Oct. 5-10) was homecoming week. The homecoming game was so much fun. We had chips, donuts, hot choco, jasmine tea and blankets. Even though it was so cold, i still loved it because i got to spend time with friends. It was me, Tina, Annick, Thuy, Giang, Don, Darlene, Zaw, and Denny/Danny? there was a lot of laughter and shouting, and even though our team lost (i think), that day was memorable. The floats were fun, but the highlight of friday’s night were the fireworks, they were so lovely! it was kind of breathtaking. Then saturday was the homecoming dance. i got home at 12 PM and had to rush the GMall to buy shoes for my dress, and luckily i found a really nice pair with the help of my friend. i got home around 4:30 PM and spent the rest of the time getting ready. all the while wishing for the night to be superb, memorable, spectacular, and all those wonderful things. And let me just say that it topped all the other dances i went to. People danced and had lots of fun, the songs were good and the lights were cool.  It was nothing short of what i wished for, with a few surprises along the way too, if only it would’ve lasted forever… This weekend was just awesome! But it’s underscored by the fact that the twin of my soul (melissa) isn’t here with me. When she gets back , we’re going to make up for it though! :D